My den.. my paranoia....

2007 ( ~ the killing moon~)



With '06 almost a memory, always good to look foreward to a bright new year. this year was good, i got married to my best friend and love, erika. no other event or down-time could match the joy i felt on October 20th. It was only the second best day of my life, next to the day i met her. When everything else failed on me this year, i turned around and she was there right behind me.

But onward to '07... i can honestly, i can't go into this year with any kind on uncertainty. i have to be straight more upfront. People have shit on me for far to long and it has to stop. people know they can take full adavantage of me, cause alot of people view being senestive and having emotion is a weakness. and its really not. I am who am. I can't promise to be less senestive, but i can't also let people walk over me either. But i do need to be a little stronger. And just say fuck'em, every once and a while. i'm sick of being a everyone's punching bag. i need the focus.

other things, need to quit smoking. i jus do it to do it, i don't even like it.

i need to go back to school and finish what i started a long time ago. its one of my biggest regrets in my life. i don't want to go back full-time, just maybe part-time.

there will be alot of good things about '07, moving into a better apartment, and getting my doggie back, mario. that's my boy. and oh yesssss, going to vegas baby!

signing off on '06,

~vito

ok trying this again.
Its Sunday, my typical Sunday, coffee, newspaper, coffee, puter, rinse, repeat.
i've come to the conclusion, i haven't been writing this journal for myself, i've not been honest to myself.
i've been doing things in here to get reactions from people.
not writing about things i want to write about.
i just think from now on, i'll just be honest and not resond to detractors.
i miss my friends, i've been a complete hermit, well to be frank ever since i've moved out on my own. i need human interaction, besides my love erika.
goal(s) for the week, call mr. moo, try to visit melissa and the baby.

next two days action packed,
KMFDM at the Icon Monday,
Suicide Girls at the Icon Tuesday!
wedding in a, 11 and a half days.

yeah, its me the long lost vito.
i think i'm ready to rant again.
damn i haven't posted in ages.
but until then, bed awaits my tired ass.
nite

well, today is erika and I's sixth anniversary, YEAH!!! how do we celebrate you ask? by both working.
damn you world of retail.
that's alright though.
Missing the Sabres game this afternoon, super pumped about the game, hell super pumped about the series.
8 more wins to the cup.
Have two new pets. Two cute little fancy rats, named stewie and marty.
adorable.
once again coffee is wreaking havoc with my tummy, time to change brands once again.
talk to miss melissa last evening, haven't talked to her much recently. it was nice to chat with her for awhile.
her little girl is sooooo cute, little Vienna.
have to get those hooker boots my dear. lol
off to the daily retail hell. i love it, i should not bitch.

i'm adding two more bands to my list of suck, because Fall Out Boy is getting lonely,

Avenge Sevenfold (your so metal....please)
Panic! at the Disco
(what's with the !, in there name.)

smile

Let me use simple ENGLISH.
this is an open letter to my sister,
because i know your reading.
YOU SHOW ME, where i put things about my nieces and nephews and i will gladly apologize to you.
however, you will never find anything , because nothing was wrote.
What would i prove, by saying anything about my nieces and nephews.
You have nothing, so quit your lying.
i'm done with this.

smile

very pleased, reported on mtv.com...


Three Original 'Star Wars' Films (Finally) Coming To DVD — But Not For Long

Lucas will release the first trio of films in their earliest incarnations — for three short months.




Even Yoda couldn't have seen this one coming.

After a decade of refusing to entertain the notion, "Star Wars" creator and gatekeeper George Lucas has announced plans to team with Fox Home Entertainment on a DVD release of the three original



films that long ago founded his empire in a galaxy not so far away. But like an appearance by Bossk, the discs' availability will be brief.

The original, unedited films will appear in stores on September 12 and, Disney-like, will return to Lucas' "vault" three months later. The startling news of the films' pending release will undoubtedly have diehard fans busting out in Ewok celebration dances and tossing their overtaxed VHS tapes into the trash.

In the 1990s, Lucas angered some fans by digitally updating "Star Wars" (now called "A New Hope"), "The Empire Strikes Back" and "Return of the Jedi," insisting that the films had fallen short of his original vision. While preparing for his prequel trilogy, Lucas released episodes four, five and six as "special editions," complete with added scenes and enhanced special effects. Those films, which Lucas claimed were the definitive versions preserved for future generations, have garnered enormous DVD sales. Still, the "original" trilogy has consistently ranked in Internet polls as the most desirable DVDs never manufactured.

Lucas' latest announcement evidently seeks to appease the franchise's famously vocal (and loyal) fanbase, many of whom have expressed displeasure at the revisions and "improvements" to the films they grew up on. With Greedo shooting at Han Solo first (to make Solo look less cutthroat), Hayden Christensen replacing another actor at the end of "Jedi" (to maintain continuity for Anakin Skywalker) and pointless scenes with a flirtatious Boba Fett (anything, apparently, to get more screen time for the popular character), those versions often made dedicated fans feel like raising fists in the air and, Vader-like, screaming, "Noooo!"

Now, Lucasfilm and Fox claim, "there is another" on the horizon — another DVD release, that is, with the three films to be packaged together in two-disc editions. For "Star Wars" fans, it might be the best news they've had since Han Solo emerged from deep-freeze.

i'm going to rant here for a sec,
you know what really fuckin' grinds my gears.
this what i see at work,
you observe this working retail~

People who smell like complete ASS, dress like shit(not a stlye thing), rude, on public assistance who have
Lobster, High end cuts of meat and carrying a cell phone.
GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR.

What's wrong with that picture?
my tax dollars hard at work.
and i'm not a class whore so don't pull that shit on me.
i'm just a regular hard working stiff, who is sooo sick of people not living in there own means.
i'm done.

Yeah! My Sabres win this fine afternoon, beating Philly 3-0.
good game.
loving Hockey!

anywho, erika tells me that i have been talking in my sleep again. she told me i went on for about ten minutes about complete bull-shit.
erika tells me i do this alot.
am i that restless?
well at least, i'm not sleepwalking like i used to do when i was a child.

i tired as hell right now, going to timmy ho's across yonder, for a yummy caffeinated beverage.

i'm going to check out the movie Hard Candy. i heard its absoulte sicking subject matter.

yes, the shag is gone. vito has finally got a haircut.
of course i look hot.
oh yes i'm vanity run amuck.

Ok i'm hooked on the NhL playoffs. especially my boys the Sabres. granted we did lose last evening, but i'm pretty sure will bounce back friday evening. erika and i have determined were probably going to get season tickets next year. yeah i got erika hooked. let me tell you erika is not one of those so called female fans, who just watch it for the attractiveness of the players.
she's knowledgeable. she loves the game.
which i will have to add another reason why i love her so much.

why does this women turn me into a big pile of mush.
=)
love her.

looking through my star wars toys, made me think.
what if george lucas could remake the last three star wars films (1-3)?
what if they never happened.

i rarely admit this, being the star wars fan that i am, thinking that the past three films where utter pieces of crap. granted, i've watched them over and over, but i didn't get that same feeling i had when i saw the originals. they where amazing, way ahead of there time. the special effects where simple and amazing. unlike the new films, which i refer to them as CGI acid trips.
too much. too much of just everything. and George your imagination, killer.
however, did he watch his first three films before he did the new ones?
plot holes, cgi caracters and wooden acting.
what came good out of it the brillant cartoon network Clone Wars cartoon, that bridged the gap between epsiodes two and three. its amazig that Genndy Taratakovsky, a fresh face to the star wars universe an come in there and make a compelling story.
i think that's what star wars needed new people adding there fresh ideas to lucas's work.
well, will still watch the new films, yes. my love goes deep. yes, i'm a star war nerd.

don't you hate when you borrow movies and don't watch them? i think, i've had resident evil 2 and elektra in my possion for about 4 months from my twin.
and you know, i have no passion to watch them. why did i borrow them again?

by the way, i'm completely hooked on the NhL playoffs right now.
totally wicked games so far.
Go Sabres!

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ok.
i've decided for my quick thoughts, will posted on my blog at myspace.
http://www.myspace.com/paranoidstar002

for my deeper insight on things will be forever posted here.
the important things that is.

for example, if i just want to say.. FALL OUT BOY sucks royal goat nads. will be posted at my myspace blog....
however if you want reasons WHY, FALL OUT BOY sucks royal goat nads. i will do that here with in depth analysis.
kay.
later.

by the way.....
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FALL OUY BOY SUCKS ROYAL GOAT NADS!
in depth huh?
lol

i need some good new music to make me happy toady.
any suggestions?

i know your reading,
that why i do the things i do.
it proves my point,
you have nothing better to do.
sad. =(

Create your own Music List @ HotFreeLayouts!

well, my mom is all settled now in her new apartment. which is really good for her to be settled finally. i know how badly she wanted to get out of our old home. just to much work for one person, plus the memories.
she is closer to my sister annie, and she still has the wonder pup mario. i'll probably end going to see her this week sometime.
i found out yesterday that most likely i'm going to have to spend easter over my oldert sister's house.
joyous.
i person who i haven't even talked(by choice) to in over a year. i hate to be a bitch about this and suck up my so called pride in even going over there. i deserve an apology from her and nothing less. she caused great an utter crap for me last year. spreading bull-shit lies and mis-interpretation to my mother.
i just cannot let this go.

did i mention, i'm in desperate need of a haircut?
also i do spend alot of time at myspace as of late, if interested by all means.

http://www.myspace.com/paranoidstar002

i'm on a huge Interpol kick as of late. love the band, love'em

i was just looking through the archives of my very journal. man alot of things have happened in the past year. nearly a year ago all the drama with my twin and dee-jay was going down. it was a pretty shitty time.
the tension as i remember was very high.
i was just writing journal entries to get a rise out of people.
blurting out lies, just to see if it would get back to me.
something though still is lingering on from last year. i still don't talk to certain family members. (you know who you are). do i care.. nope. well maybe. it sucks to have tension.
but i dealt with it for the years, they weren't there.
my childhood was filled with coming and going's of them.
i'm used to it.
in a strange way, its taught me not be fickle or careless.
they have to look at there-self in the mirror everyday and say look i wasn't there.

denial is good thing isn't it.

am i the only one who ISN'T interested in seeing Superman Returns this summer?
it just doesn't tickle my fancy.